His ways are not our ways

So I am headed to NM on Sunday to give a presentation on my amazing experience this summer in Israel. I have an awesome movie maker presentation ready to go that will not play on my laptop, so I borrow a computer. I am almost there when I get a phone call that my USB drive was still in Texas. Then I wonder, Lord do you even want me to give the presentation. Yes, my child--He says, just trust me. So I get there and try to download the presentation from email--this doesn't work and so I decide to simply give the presentation orally with scriptures (without pictures/music) and just trust the Holy Spirit. I spoke for about 15 minutes and then a great guy, Jeff comes in and tells me he has the presentation and it is working. Praise God! Sometimes, I think God just wants to make sure that we are acting in total trust and faith and then He comes through and exceeds our expectations. Thank you, Father that you are God of all things and that you are in control. Thank you for teaching me through these experiences how to trust you more. I love you, Abba.

"Home"?

Where is home if not in the center of His will? My heart is torn into pieces, scattered 6,000 miles apart. God of miracles open the heavens and rain down into my life. Shine your perfect light before my feet via your word so that my steps will be perfectly centered in your will. Keep my eyes from diverting to the left or to the right. Focussed on your straight and narrow path. When the voices of doubt, judgment and question begin to rise around me take me back to the moments when I heard your voice and let Your words resonate in my mind, heart and ears. Thank you Father for having plans so amazing and beuatiful for me that I am unable to grasp them with my mind. I rest and wait in faith--what next, Abba?

Surely Yours.

"My heart is aching for my Father, my eyes they long to see my God. This world has nothing I desire-You ar what I'm looking for. so hide me underneath Your shelter, cover me and I will say I am Yours, surely I am Yours." These words are to one of my favorite songs by an artist named Chaya. I remember my Pap saying from the pullpit over and over in my memory that "you are not your own but bought with a price." I guess it took me 30 years to finally understand that my will has to cease to exist and when I die to myself and this world it all begins to fade into Him.

I will not be moved!

I'll say of the Lord, "You are my strength, my shield, my portion, deliverer, strong tower, my EVER PRESENT help in time of need. You are teaching me that the ways of the world are futile, they are nothing in the face of your power and glory. The ideas and ways of man are not your ways and your thoughts. You are God, sovereign and HOLY! You will keep your promises to me. May your kingdom come in my life, on this earth. May you rush in like a wind, be faithful as I wait upon you to complete the work which you have started. You take that which the world says is hopeless and dead and breathe new life. You spoke, "Lazarus, come forth!" Dry bones of my circumstance--come to life in the name of Jesus!!!!