Tired.

I need supernatural strength. Boy am I tired! Gideon would not even let me take a shower this morning without screaming at the top of his lungs. So I get out of the shower and put him in the shower with his toys. Nope, still screaming. So, I get out and wrap him in a towel baby burrito style. He smiles. I put his diaper on, he screams, I dress him ... still screaming. Keep in mind, at this point I still have shampoo in my hair and am 20 minutes behind. Ugh! 1 baby, 2 means of provision, 1 job (Missionary). Don't get me wrong, I know I am blessed with a wonderful child. I am not however blessed with an unlimited amount of energy. I am a human being and a weak one due to the fact that I never eat right or exercise because that would once again require me to be away from my child whom I never see b/c I work all the time. The whole thing is a catch 22 really. I have to work to provide for him a stable environment. If I work it causes him to be more and more stressed-- which is unstable in itself. Lord, give me your strength in the day to day and your wisdom to be where you want me all the time.